I've skipped my medicine, I don't want to take it. It only makes me worse. My doc tells me I'm sick, and that I need them, but why can't she cure me? Maybe I'm not sick enough?

I'm not enough

I thought I was, but I'm not

I'm never going to be enough

I've also "lost" my best friend, K. He wants to be more than just friends, but I can't. It's not that I don't want to, but I can't. I'm so afraid I can't give him what he expect from me. I know he wants an affair I can't give him. I'm not ready for it.

If I only get thin enough, then I'll be ready... I hope...

If I only get thin enough, then all my fears will disappear... I know it's not true, but I have this delusion that thats the way it is...

before - after

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